Random Thoughts
Lately, I have all these random thoughts. Maybe it's becuase its the end of the school year- a time for reflection and planning, a time to "take count", see where you are, where you wanted to be, and where you hope to be. The past year of my life seems like a blur.
From an activity standpoint: I moved from Los Angeles to New York City, travled to China and Peru, finished my first year of Business School- half-way to earning a fancy graduate degree, and accepted an a summer offer in banking-- my B-school goal.
From an emotional standpoint: I left some close friends in LA- friends who have know me for years, who have stood by me through thick and thing- people I adore, I left family far away, I made new friends in NYC- a few became very close friendships, but mostly surface level friendships, and, of course, I fell in love and was later left with a broken heart.
Life is so interesting, dynamic, fun, passionate, painful at times, and yet, so gratifying. I have no complaints and definately no regrets. I am so blessed and thankful to be where I am, doing what I want to do, calling the shots as I see fit and following where my instincts are guiding me. This past year has been nothing short of INCREDIBLE. I wouldn't trade it for anything. However, I am always up for improving myself and enjoying life as much as I can. If I've learned anything this last year, it's that many people take life way too seriously- and are too focused only on themselves and how they can get ahead. While goals and working hard are very important- I think there is a bigger picture out there. Another important thing that I further realized this past year is that this is MY life, and I answer to no one but me. I know that sounds simple and all. But, really I look around me and I see people making decisions to please others all the time. The friend that is in medical school, becuase their dad is a doctor, the girl that married a guy that her parents approved of, and so on. It's so easy to get on a bandwagon of what others are doing and forget where you want to be headed. Lastly, I've learned that things always work out, for better or worse, and that everything will be okay. No reason to over-stress, especially when things are not even in your control. Do what you can, focus on what you have control over, and just sit back.... and let life take it's course.
Wow, am I worthy of a philosophy degree now? I guess I'm getting into all these deep thoughts at 3:46 AM, contemplating the next set of changes in my life as I embark on my summer internship and last half of B-school, and I think all the Jason Mraz songs I downloaed are having an effect on me. (he is such a cutie!) On that note- time for some zzzz's.